Monday, August 31, 2009

Not So Cool

Do you ever feel uncool? Like everyone in the world is cooler than you? More popular
than you? Being used by God in ways that you would NEVER be used? I need to get in the Word. I'll tell you what. How long, Oh, Lord, will I be in the 6th grade? How long will I long for You to mold me into something that I am not? How long will I look on with envy that you have gifted others in ways that You have not gifted me. How long will I be sad that I don't sew, or monogram things...or want to? How long? How long will I want to spend time with people that I don't have anything in common with? How long will I scoff at the life and talents and mercies you have so freely poured out on me? How long? Until I spend time with You, You say. Until I value Your Word more than I value 20 minutes of extra sleep? Until I seek Your will alone, rather than my own. Then, You say, and ONLY then will I be satisfied. Then, and only then, will I look at where the boundary lines have fallen and declare them to be so good...so pleasing...so perfect. Oh, Father, won't you captivate my heart again. Won't You please satisfy me in the morning with Your unfailing love. I'm not all that...but to Christ...ahh...but because of Christ...

7 comments:

Linda said...

I want to be uncool. It's so much better than the other choices, isn't it?

BTW - did you know you won the book at Lisa's blog, the Berry Patch?

Just His Best said...

That reminds me of David Crowder Band's song Everything Glorious:

The day is brighter here with You
the night is lighter than it's hue
would lead me to believe
which leads me to believe that
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
and I am Yours
what does that make me?

Berry Patch said...

Amen! I can never remember the reference, but the verse which basically says I don't do the things I should - instead I do the things I don't want to do - continually plays through my mind these days.

Made To Organize said...

I just love you Ali! Your honesty and transparency always ministers to me, and so often, like when I read this post, it speaks RIGHT into my current feelings/circumstances. God DOES use you in ways you probably don't even realize. I think you're excellent.

Sheryl said...

Hey Ali,
Normally I try to ignore the music on your blog. It makes it hard for me to conentrate on what I'm reading. But this morning, I just stoppped reading closed my eyes and listened. And God moved something inside of me. Just wanted you to know. God works in mysterious ways, even ways that sometimes bug us. Now I'm off to RISE.
Sheryl

Kim said...

Hey Ali. Hope you are doing well. I thought of you while reading another blog post, because, well...her blogging style kinda reminds me of yours. Anyhoo...did Linda Mac tell you about this blog?

http://resolved2worship.xanga.com/

I am hooked! Her photography and transparent heart (like yours) is so inspiring! Thanks, Ali.

Sara said...

ouch. wow. i needed to read that... i need to read that every day.